Acid Reflux and lovely people.

i am meeting some amazing people. every one is talking to me. everyone is telling me their story. i've met a number of woman who are going through breast cancer. i have sat next to many men getting blood transfusions. i have made friends with a man who has been battling cancer for a year and a half now. and i have shared a conversation with a man who has six months to live. i watched a woman come in today for chemo with her daughters ,who looked like she'd already given up... and we were all thinking the same thing, "why haven't these people made peace with this woman's suffering." it's all hard to watch. even harder to accept when i am in chemo already feeling a little sick, and trying to stomach the massive disaster that cancer is. but no matter what, i find that room to be the most humbling place i have ever found myself. i am absolutely humbled by what i see in that room. the compassionate spouse, the loud mouthed advocate for the woman who can't speak up, the two timer who will never give up, the one so sick that there is no choice but to show up, the nurses who go to a place that allows them to show up everyday, me.

on another note, i have avid reflux so bad it makes full term pregnancy with twins feel like a cake walk. my babies are 11 months old today and i am very sure that this time last year i was thinking that that acid reflux was about all i could handle. this year, i've got that beat. this is much worse. so, again, thank you protonics. i will be enjoying you later to help me sleep.