Perspective.

"Cancer is one of the bet things that has ever happened to me. Cancer is a perspective giver like nothing else i've ever experienced. it has given me so much more than it has taken away. and it has taken away a lot." - Sylvia McNair, Survivor.

Wow, what as awesome thing to be able to say! as i've been laying awake most nights trying to figure out what i am going to do with the massive amounts of information given to me by massive amounts of doctors, i've been trying to decide how i am going to live my life now... now that i have cancer. i can't go back. back to the place where what i thought about life is true. i am now in a place where what i know about life is true, and faced with this choice... how am i going to live? no more cliches, no more cute quotes... it's down to the Word. The. Word. The Word of God that i believe is true. it's staring me in the face. am i gonna do it? am i going to live my life differently now... now that i know i could die? and the answer is, yes. Yes. I. Am. i am at the very beginning of this journey. i will never again be the person i was before i had cancer. i am going to be different. and i am going to live better. i am going to be a better wife, and mother, and sister, daughter, friend, stranger, driver, speaker, writer, traveler, photographer.... the lens i look through is going to see things others don't. for the first time ever, i might actually really begin to live without borders... beyond what i ever thought possible. so in the end i wonder, could cancer be a gift?